Do You Live by a Basic Truth or a Basic Fear?



“The more you love yourself, the more you are able to love others.”
Robert Holden, Loveability

In his book Loveability, Robert Holden points out the fact that at the beginning of every new relationship there is a grace period. During that initial phase “you feel so happy and so blessed to have met each other that any doubts about your loveability are temporarily suspended.” How true! Whether or not this grace period lasts depends on how we view ourselves. As Holden makes clear, it depends on whether we live by the basic truth “I am loveable,” or the basic fear “I am not lovable.”

The average codependent lives by the basic fear “I am not lovable.” And so this means that our grace period in any new relationship is fairly short. It doesn’t take long for us to get inside our heads and to start feeling inferior, needy and clingy.

This happens because, as Holden points out, the less we love ourselves:
            -the more critical we become of others (as well as ourselves).
            -the more we accuse others of not loving us.
            -the harder we make it for people to love us.
            -the more we try to control the relationship.
            -the more we test other people’s love for us.
            -the more complaints we have about others.
            -the more we fear committing to love.
            -the more independent and defensive we get.
            -the more we try to change others.

Anyone who has ever suffered from poor self-love and poor self-esteem can relate to the list of dysfunctional behaviors above. Once fear of being unlovable takes hold of us, we begin to project this fear onto the other person. We become jealous, suspicious and unable to trust. This causes us to become critical, accusatory, controlling and complaining. We begin playing games to test the other person and may even become detectives by snooping through the other person’s cell phone or desk drawers. Anything we discover that reinforces our fears of being unlovable then compels us to manipulate the other person into changing. If they resist, we become defensive and fiercely independent out of our fear of being hurt and abandoned.

The solution? We need to trade our basic fear of being unlovable for the basic truth that we are indeed lovable. The more we love ourselves, the more we trust ourselves and others. The more we love ourselves beyond our own brokenness, the more we love others beyond their brokenness. The more we love ourselves, the more we are able to be interdependent with others and the more we stay in the present moment. We then live life instead of fearfully trying to control it. And we return to that beautiful grace period where we feel so blessed to know and be in relationship with others.

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