Soulshine

“Cause I'm only strong as glass They say I'm built to last but I could break Yeah I'm only strong as glass And I am all I have so if I break, there's no more.” Goapelle, Strong As Glass (2014) Most of my life I’ve felt as if I was only as strong as glass. And I don’t mean that in a physical sense, but in an emotional sense. Inside, my spirit or soul has always felt fragile. It was severely damaged in my childhood when I chose to give all of my personal power away to my parents and grandparents. This is a choice that most every child in an abusive home makes. Children basically have no other choice because they believe their parents and grandparents are infallible and all-powerful, like God. A child believes that his/her parents have to be right and that he/she has to be wrong. So when a child is shamed into believing that he/she is defective in some way, worthless or unlovable, he/she can reach that point of being emotionally devastated; even annihil...

I talked recently about praying to be aligned with the positive energy of our Universe; with that energy that is God or Spirit. And I think that such a prayer is always fruitful. Sometimes we’re lucky and we go through a day aligned with positive energy and feeling really good, then suddenly something very negative happens and we are thrown for a loss. The natural inclination of many people, including myself, has been to return negative energy for negative energy. Someone cuts us off in traffic and we curse at them. But negative energy only begets more negative energy. So I’ve decided to stop reacting negatively when bad things happen or people are hurtful. Sure, I have to acknowledge the bad feelings I have in these situations and own them long enough to bring myself back to a positive balance. But I don’t have to have revenge or retribution. I’ve decided that it’s better to bless-away negative energy than it is to engage in it. I’d rather bless the bad energy that has c...

I talked recently about praying to be aligned with the positive energy of our Universe; with that energy that is God or Spirit. And I think that such a prayer is always fruitful. Sometimes we’re lucky and we go through a day aligned with positive energy and feeling really good, then suddenly something very negative happens and we are thrown for a loss. The natural inclination of many people, including myself, has been to return negative energy for negative energy. Someone cuts us off in traffic and we curse at them. But negative energy only begets more negative energy. So I’ve decided to stop reacting negatively when bad things happen or people are hurtful. Sure, I have to acknowledge the bad feelings I have in these situations and own them long enough to bring myself back to a positive balance. But I don’t have to have revenge or retribution. I’ve decided that it’s better to bless-away negative energy than it is to engage in it. I’d rather bless the bad energy that has c...